Lexie Eva Millett

Lexie-eva was our 3rd little girl, some would say Irish twins as there was only 11 and half months between Olivia-louise and Lexie-eva. They all where perfect and we we know how lucky we are to have them.

When Lexie-eva was 4 and a half months young, we booked to go away for a couple days in Bristol as our first break in three years. Casey-marie, lexie oldest sister who was 2 and a half went off to nusery for the morning. We asked Auntie Sharon to look after Olivia-louise as Lexie-eva was not herself, dispite her smiling and playing in her bouncer as usal. We said we couldn`t go unless we knew 100% that she was okay.

We are so glad that we didn`t go as Lexie-eva would not of been given a fighting chance. We went to A&E as we called the doctors and they said they couldn`t get lexie-eva in till 3pm. I said i am not waiting that long we`ll take her to A&E. The reseptinist said well if you feel you need to do that then do.

Although we were very disapointed that they couldn`t get her in we now know that there was a good reason as she was in the best place, as we had a long wait in Musgrve park hospital by three o`clock Lexie-eva totaly shut down. They took Lexie-eva on to the opperating table and within seconds she was surronded. Your eyes would never be able to prepare for the sights we were seeing and about to see. The nurses asked is we wanted to wait outside, there was no way we would leave her, how ever hard it was to bare couldn`t leave her to face it alone.

Needles where going in everywhere and we were loosing lexie-eva. They thought meningitisat first, then they took scans everywhere it was lucky that a Cardioalogist noticed on the x-ray of her lungs that the heart looked larger then usual so took a closer look at Lexie-eva`s heart and confirmed that Lexie-eva had dillated cardiomyopathy (enlarged heart).

Lexie-eva was kept stable for hours while waiting for the retreaval team from Bristol Childrens Hospital to come it felt like days. When they arrived and put Lexie-eva on to there bed and all their equiptment i saw her whole body stop and broke down. They said it is okay she is all wired up now. I knew how close to death she was, i guess i kept thinking if she was ment to go she would of gone in her sleep, or when we were away, or we would of got doc app and just gone but we were in the right place. But now i know she wanted the angels to wait for a moment.

The angels did for two weeks as she fort hard in ITCU Bristol Childrens Hospital. Nanny Val along with other members of the family looked after our other two little girls and made sure we seen them everyday even if it was just for half an hour.I remember our other two girls came up and when we seen them in the car a new song came on the angels can wait for a moment and it was on ne of Lexie-eva`s bad day`s there and i broke up as i prayed they would wait a moment. They did...

On the 1st of Aug 2008 they desided to move Lexie-eva from bed 5 to bed 16. And on the 2nd it was a total nightmare everything went wrong (dont want to go into detail) ill always believe had things been different then she would still be in our arms. But we know it would of been a long and painful journy for Lexie-eva and one thing i can be greatful for is that she is untouched she never had to have all her organs replace while waiting for that slim change of getting a heart transplant.

We never got a chance to cancel our friends Jason and Lynsy who were comin up to see usand get us out of the hospital for bit. When they turned up we spoke with them about the hell of a day Lexie-eva had.

To return Lexie-eva`s Daddy and Jason walked over to Lexie-eva as we watched though the window. Jason started to walk back and i walked in as the angels came to save Lexie-eva from this pain. Lexie-eva is such a strong angel she didnt want us to be on our own when she flew to the light.

They tryed for an hour to get her heart into a rythem and resusatate 10.15 pm Lexie-eva was declared dead. i Thought she was still breathing as they walked away and i picked Lexie-eva up they said it is the addrenalin. We just didn`t want to believe it.

As Lexie-eva was passing fireworks were going off as it was the bristol harbour festival. And Lexie-eva`s cousin Anne smith was singing to a live preformance, none other then the song she wrote and sang for Lexie-eva.

So still no air no breath how can this happen it just doesn`t make sence. Bathing and changing Lexie-eva willing the angels to bring her back. We had Lexie-eva Blessed as we know how blessed we are to have had her for a short but unforgetable life filled with moments to creasure for ever.

Having to think about where you want to rest your baby to rest just didn`t seem right. Didn`t want to at first then i realised she will only ever get one resting place and one last day on earch and we wanted it to be the best we could for her.

Aug last year was the dualest weather recorded with a thunder strom on the 2nd the day lexie-eva passed (they say electrical) it rained everyday since untill the 14th of aug 2008 the date of Lexie-eva`s resting day. It was so still and sunny like the earth had stoped breathing. I prayed to Lexie-eva the night before for her to bring the sun. You could hear the foot steps of the hourses as they carried Lexie-eva to us. Paul and Becky Fudge looked after Lexie-eva so well in her chaple of rest and helped us to give her the most beautiful day ever for her.


She is so powerful not only did Lexie-eva bring the sun she brought a rumble of thounder at 12 midday the time of lexie-eva service. Then brought the wind when it was time to relise 300 hot pink ballons with yellow ribbon and blow it in the dirrection of our house to let us know that she was carried home.



There is no better gift then the gift of life.

Thank you Lexie-eva for youxr warm embrace, smileing with all your heart and all the love you gave to us and your sisters as well as so many other lifes.

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